i want..

i want to live and give mylife for someone who love and appreciate me.
care about my feelings...
and i want to get married and be a good wife.
i want to understand him and same goes to him.
i want to have 4 kids. brilliants and chomel.

i want to give them loves, edu, and tell them the meaning of life...

I WANT it to be perfect. make it perfect...at least to my point of view...

the birthday bash..?

i went out with him, on saturday.
just for 1 hour...*deleted*
on that pleasant morning, i gave him the my handmade card, present & treated him...
seriously, i want to spend time talk with him more..more
but, keadaan and masa tak mengizinkan. arghh...

pheww

i feel numb.

bored. alone & stuck.

the only promise that remains....

Reba McEntire When You Love Someone Like That Lyrics
Featuring: LeAnn Rimes Lyrics

I think it was me,
It must have been me
I guess I did something wrong
I tried too hard
Wanted too much
I guess that’s why he’s gone

I lost my pride
I fought and cried
I felt like a little kid
What’s wrong with me
I still can’t believe I did the things I did
I couldn’t change him
He was gonna break my heart
I saw it coming
Yeah, I knew it from the start
But…

(Chorus)

When you love, (When you love)
When you love someone like that
When you give what you can’t take back
When you love, (When you love)
With all your heart and soul
It’s so hard to let it go

When you love someone like that, yeah
When you love someone like that

Verse 2
(Reba)
Girl, it ain’t right,
It just ain’t right,
Don’t tell yourself that it was you
You followed your heart
You gave it your best
There’s nothing more you can do

Guys like him are like the wind
And you know it’s just too bad
They blow in and out again
And never know what they had
Girl, I can tell you
He’ll do the same to someone else
It ain’t about you
So don’t be so hard on yourself
‘Cause

(Reba)
Oh, We’ve all loved and lost
It’s happened to us all
(LeAnn)
I hear what you’re sayin’
But I feel like the only one
(Reba)
You might feel that way but you’re not

You’re alright
I’m alright
You’re ok
I’m ok
You’re gonna make it anyway
Yeah

When you love someone like that
When you love someone like that

When you love, when you love
With all your heart and soul
It’s so hard to let it go


making promises..saying the sweet words.. is just so easy... and piece of cake.

how bout..making it...true...and real.

it's ok. this world and life is fair enough.

finally....

Alhamdullilah...

after....
3 years
132 credit hours.
42 subjects...minus 5 subjects (transfered credits)
9 times final exams...without supplementary exam(alhamdulilah)
xx times of course works + midterm exams.
xx times of ponteng class. :P

the end of degree years. the up and downs. happy and sad. and i just checked my
final actual result,wuhuuu... i got 4.00 gpa....yeahh...hmm betulkah?? im so shocked& happy and . tq Joel and tq Prof Dr. Shetty..& Nerjang...;)

darn! cant help it.

burst into tears.

im just not strong enough.

sampai hati.

ngahh..

hmm... i cudnt sleep. it's already 2.55am. ..i'm watching rerun of american idol season 7 for second times. today is their first show onair (mostprobably) from starworld to 8tv to starworld..okay. pheeh..i'm teribly bored and i hate when this feeling came out again & again. hmm..while watching tv, i did some photo editing...bored.again...seriously there's no productive works i did since i finished my study.

hmm i miss my friends. we had so much fun and joy that day...somethings to appreciate and remembered for whole life...i wish i can undo every things. but just for certain time where i have the bundle of jolly joy and chills time and the time where i can forget all the problems or unnecessary things for me. spend the day with bargain and shopping. sale sana sini.owh... i likey!
i have numbers of list to shop till drop. hahaha...


i've just checked my account. i still didnt get my refund arghh..lastweek when i send the refund form to finance department, the kakak said , i will get the money this week. but hell nothing in my account. hah whatever...

this boredom is actually killing me...urghh.:P

maybe...

hmmm, maybe the things didnt go the way i hope and i want it to be. but after all i learned somethings from it. maybe i must stop hoping now. i must make all the dream comes true again. not just waiting and hoping.

yes, i've gone thru mistakes by mistakes. As well as bunch of LIES ,tears and hurt and wounds. but at some point, i shud congrate to myself for prize i won...

cheers!

without you...

*issit that cool?*

11.38pm. i feel bored and i dont know whatelse i cud do instead of watching tv and surfing the internet. which kinda slow... now.hurm.. a big question hovering around my head right now. but i have to act positive...because i know the truth is like that.coz, i never decide anythings for that.whatever happened was the best for him.not us. but all i cud do just accept it. it's kinda weird to think and to believe when he said he missed me yesterday. because the truth is..*deleted*

i wont drag myself into trouble again. i hv to be strong. it's fine to feel like this..lonely and sepi at least now i have some space to think and to give ultimate indulging to myself with self-spa-at-home. make myself happy, pampering myself.from head to toe. ;).heaven!!!!!

wherever the worst part goes? let it be. let it go and disappeared. because i believe perhaps one day, the time will come. enough with that guy. it will only make you feel miserable and hurt to death.:P..(not until i found the right guy again.).let the love die and fade away...it wont comeback again.

i should forget it. love & guy is not the only things.. we're searching for.but anyway i still admit that knowing him, gave me bittersweet memories. but... time flies...people change... love die...

so, that is it. a very thank you. ;)